Sometimes I wonder
What if we were someone else?
What if we had the chance to walk down the isle?
and hear those bells?
What if together we could reach our dreams?
Go higher than elevator beams?
Go to places no one knew
And have a life just me and you
What if we were powerful like Michelle and Obama?
An image of strength together like a rope that holds forever
Or what about Jay-Z and Beyonce
They cant be broken up despite what the media might say
But hold up… this isn’t that kind of poem
Despite what everyone wanted to see… tonight ima let everyone know and open their eyes
Cause all this time, they been blind and they choose to cover your sight
And now its with your I have to fight
See at first I was confused
Not knowing what I felt for you
I was just stuck on those images everyone kept putting in my head
Felt like a poor man just happy eating bread.
Your words they ALMOST felt right
Yet something missing, and that whole grew even bigger after we started kissing
I tried I tried to go along for the ride, but it didn’t feel right
It wouldn’t be fair to you or your pride
Felt like I was wearing a disguise
Pretending to be happy getting close to your side.
Then I had to tell you I just wanted to keep your friendship
And your reaction was not what I expected
You said it was cool
That things like this happen to you
Then you even asked me if my reasons were true.
But how could I tell you what was real
I just didn’t want you to feel like it was your heart I wanted to hurt or steal
Then I woke to realize
That I wasn’t seeing you with real eyes
Suddenly you started to speak falsely of me
Saying that I just want to be a slut
And pass up a good guy and treat him like some kind of mutt
All this just cause you saw me dancing with some guy at the club???
Don’t judge what you see
I know your hurt but its no excuse to say those things about me
Don’t judge me!!!!
I am who I am and I wont change for you
I ask who you think you are??? Who?
I know who I am but its just me
But you’re still trying to figure out who you want to be
I do what I want to do
And none of its for you!
So why do you care
And stop staring at me with that glare
I’m sorry thigns didn’t turn out for you
But I never led you on
Shouldn’t you be glad I didn’t drag it on?
Man im DONE trying to explain this you
You wont listen
But sometimes I wonder why
My mind tried to decide
That we could possibly be
But my heart said it wasn’t you it wanted for me
***I realize that this is sort of immature to write about someone, but I wrote this piece due to a situation that got out of hand with a friend. Lesson learned for me. When you cross that line with a friend, sometimes there is just no going back. Always listen to your gut, and not your friends. If it does not feel right its for a reason. I honestly regret everything and wish I could take things back. Who’s to say that I am perfect because I am not. This poem is just the way that I was expressing my self and how I felt at that moment when I was angry.